wilhelm DM screen @maenad@cthonic.club

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Many of my posts are unsolicited advice.

Know that most of those posts are advice that I'm actively working on taking right that second.

If i don't follow back, it's probably because you haven't interacted enough with me or my friends and/ or don't have enough public posts.

I'm down to make new friends but I'm trying to exercise reasonable judgement.

I'm a:
Computational scientist (PhD in Biology via Applied Math), doing the academia thing until I rage quit.

baker/dog owner/wannabe goth/poppunk nostalgist/(s)witch/comic nerd/crafter

Wantonly bisexual, terrible at romance, worse at monogamy, permanently angry at gender norms.

I like:
WoW/OW

brazilian jiu jitsu/muay thai/dance/lifting

here's a pretty (and touching) dance with a moderate display of flesh https://vimeo.com/305451498?fbclid=IwAR2fvClR32ftcMOll7lWlKVjVQlKJ0CjA1axHD7BYh7ULWbRz9nk4IG0cW8

(not lewd, not nude)

I am pretty sure the person's who nickname in my new irl-games discord is Jason is actually named Mark irl

but that's not a mistake I wanna risk

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Hey @matilde I like your EP

Came home to excellent presents from @HereticSoul

Run simulations independently - 3 minutes each

Tell R to run 10 consecutively - R.exe is not responding (more or less, it's actually more of a butt about it than that)

HELP I DO NOT UNDERSTAND COMPUTER.

I still think about this talk.

At the time I, a non-man in a male dominated field**, took it as a slap in the face of all non-men in science.

Now I go "wow talk about a weird justification for capitalist bullshit", "holy shit does anyone actually think this justifies ****ism?", and "wait do fascists think we should be like ants?"

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**"male dominated" in that the rich old professors are male, but actually, non-men dominate the lower ranks

Fact: eusocial hymenopterans make up a huge proportion of biomass relatively, and are a hugely diverse and successful clade.

His theory: this comes down to the efficiency of eusociality. One reason eusociality is efficient is because individuals are divided into classes at birth, and given jobs according to their class as they develop.

His conclusion: we should do the same to people.

What kind of Animal Farm SHIT.

EO Wilson visited my grad university during my PhD and gave a talk.

He's one of the namesakes of Island Biogeography, a body of theory that has super informed a lot of conservation efforts.

However, like many aging theoreticians, he got super into ants, and that's what his talk was about. Theories about ants.

It was... bad and insensitive.

I use LED bulbs

I walk or take the bus

I recycle as much as possible, bring my own bags to the store (even produce bags), order in bulk where possible to reduce waste

I wish it was enough

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I KNOW most pollution/emissions are billionaires and corporations but it just feels so fucked up

This is why i keep a blanket in my work bag

I can tell i was scrabbling for comfort food by my culturally inconsistent lunch:
Pastrami on rye
Vegan sweet potato curry
Spicy mocha

Dude working in this cafe has a long enough beard he has to keep it restrained for food safety

...

He's wearing a bandana over his chin

Meeting i was spiraling about went well

Albeit, kris was there

Here's a sleepy dog- friendly cafe selfie (blurry, with eye contact)

I have so many allergies that prompt physical responses and honestly? If they don't give me a headache I'm usually fine after I throw up whatever's bothering me.

I wish there were a similar way to deal with anxiety.

I need a 24 hr boxing gym within walking distance, or just like... a basement with a bench.

today: fine, better than average

tonight: anxiety spirals out the wazoo

WHY